Wednesday, February 5th, 2003
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8:23 pm - good day good day
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well again today i am happy. things have been looking up alot lately. i got off work early and i am so freakin stoked that tomorrow night i dont have to work or cheer. that makes me happy cause it feels liek thats all i have done lately. its supposed to snow!!! yay! i do not know how to go to school more than 3 days a week anymore.
im kinda wonderin about valentines day... like i typically hate it...lets go back and think why.... freshman year...dumped on the ol day of love...sophomore year....same song second verse....junior year...still heart broken from a relationship 3 months earlier... hmmmmm this yeat i have a boyfriend, i hope it goes better cause right now goin to bed on the 13th and wakin up on the 15th is soundin rather nice. i have a bball game that night but brad and his family are comin to it cause his uncle is the coach for the team we play...it should be a good day ... i hope
i need to study for my chem and govt test and i really need to go get this food smell off of me from work. hope everyone is well!!!
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Monday, February 3rd, 2003
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12:40 am - :) :):) :):) :):) :):) :):) :):) :)
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cI find myself sitting in state of elation. i am so happy right now and it amazes me because just days ago i was swearing to myself that i was truly depressed for the first time in my life. I kinda cheered up friday night though when i went out with all my friends and today was just kinda the icing on the cake. Like i look around me and i see so much to be thankful for. i have an amazing boyfriend whose family is incredible. i have so much fun just hanging out with them and it is the best feeling ever to be genuinly welcomed in by others. another reason for my present state is my friends. they are all so awesome. i think sometimes i really do take them for granted but i also know we all do. regardless i am making it a point to tell them all how i feel. ya know a lot of really crappy things have happened between me and my friends over the years and we have still remained so close. i think now i am finally realizing that all those situations good and bad have taught me something and helped me as a person grow. i can even say that about past realtionships now, ive learned qualities that work well with me.now that can only help me find the people that i need to strive to keep close to me as i continue to grow as a person. God has been so good to me lately. i cannot wait for bball season to be over with and work to pick back up and better than both.... warm weather, im so stoked. it was beautiful outside today and it just made me excited. well i am just rambling but i felt the strong urge to express my delight with everyone. good night all .
current mood:  loved
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12:15 am - :) :):) :):) :):) :):) :):) :):) :)
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I find myself sitting in state of elation. i am so happy right now and it amazes me because just days ago i was swearing to myself that i was truly depressed for the first time in my life. I kinda cheered up friday night though when i went out with all my friends and today was just kinda the icing on the cake. Like i look around me and i see so much to be thankful for. i have an amazing boyfriend whose family is incredible. i have so much fun just hanging out with them and it is the best feeling ever to be genuinly welcomed in by others. another reason for my present state is my friends. they are all so awesome. i think sometimes i really do take them for granted but i also know we all do. regardless i am making it a point to tell them all how i feel. ya know a lot of really crappy things have happened between me and my friends over the years and we have still remained so close. i think now i am finally realizing that all those situations good and bad have taught me something and helped me as a person grow. i can even say that about past realtionships now, ive learned qualities that work well with me.now that can only help me find the people that i need to strive to keep close to me as i continue to grow as a person. God has been so good to me lately. i cannot wait for bball season to be over with and work to pick back up and better than both.... warm weather, im so stoked. it was beautiful outside today and it just made me excited. well i am just rambling but i felt the strong urge to express my delight with everyone. good night all .
current mood: loved
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Tuesday, January 28th, 2003
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10:14 am - Hmmm
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Well this is our 4th day out of school for the snow... which might i add there is no snow present at this time, but hey i am definatly not complaining. I feel like i am losing my ability to sleep late and i am finding myself a lil bored in the morning. Life has been pretty typical here lately but in a good way. I really wish dixie would open back up cause i need money and i really do not want to work any place else. i am spoiled what can i say ? Me and brad have basically been spending the weekends together and i am beginning to feel a lil weird about my friends. Like i dont want them to feel as if i neglecting them for brad. i love them so much and they are awesome but i am also so happy with brad that i want to spend as much time as i can with him. i mean it has snowed and i have been sick but its def been a while since i have went out wiht my friends. then me and amanda kinda had a lil bobble in the friendship and i havent hung out with her since so i feel kinda weird. i love morgan to death but she has this keen ability to make me feel guilty in some way or shape when it comes to brad and she makes fun of him all the time which really irritates me. me and kari havent seen each other in forever and she is supposed ot be comin over later but still i look back on the last couple of weeks and i have always been at work cheering or with brad after school. ehhh
i really cannot wait to graduate. i am in winter hell like all i think about is summer time with warm weather. itll come. i think once bball season i over with things will chill out a lil more and when we actually go back to school things will settle down with my friends. i am so pmsing, this proves it to me, im bein overly analytical. well this is way to long so im gonna go start some homework.
current mood:  blah
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Sunday, January 19th, 2003
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12:31 pm - smiles all around
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Saturday, January 18th, 2003
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9:47 pm - YAY~!!!!
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i finally got out of the house today to go to work! i was majorly dreading it but when i got there it was cool after i got to talking to people. omg... after the first time i worked there this girl started just hating me for no apparent reason... i came back and she still hates me, why ? well i found out tonight its because she wants our boss and doesnt like it when girls that are more attrative than her are there cause she gets threatened...HAHA i suddenly dont feel bad anymore. lol but yeah it was an ok night. it was really good to escape my cabin fever. plus i get to spend the next 2 days with my incredible boyfriend!! yay!! im stoked. he is picking me up early in the morning its gonna be great. i even miss his parents. omg.. on thurs when it was snowing.. his dad offered to drive to seymour, pick me up take me to their house and bring me back that night just so i could spend time with them..then on friday after his sister left the house his mom got on the phone and was like "you know if you were here things would be perfect...we miss you honey" awhhh it was so sweet. i am so happy well i am gonna jet.... i need to wind down abit.. oh and for those of you who havent seen the majestic...see it its well worth your time
current mood:  excited
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2:32 pm
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Im such a dumbass.i am sitting here ready for work and i almost walked out the door... then my mom asked me where i was going and i said work. she said "cass- its just 2 30". BAH i rushed around for an hour cause i thought it was 3 30 . so here i sit once more. i am def going blonde again on monday. im pretty stoked. i really hope i get to see brad soon. like i havent seen him since tues due to circumstances out of my control and it is starting to get weird . like i wonder if he even minds. oh well... gotta kill some time
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Friday, January 17th, 2003
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11:23 pm - what a day
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this day has been the epitome of blah. after finally recovering from my 2 day migrane i felt even worse just becasue of all the medicene i had to take. so on top of the fact that we got out for snow , which was a good thing, i ended up doin the normal day off for me thing of cleaning the house up and watching my sister. im sorry- was that in my job description?...i feel like i never have a day for myself anymore... god im such a whiny ass
and to top it off brad is off with his friends skiing and i am insanely jealous cause i havent seen him in like a week.grrr
anyways... me and mom watched legally blonde, and ya ya sister hood... total girl movies. it was an ok night i guess
i think i wanna be blonde again. hmmm
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Tuesday, January 14th, 2003
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7:32 pm - Hunger...AHHH
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Well i think i officailly got motivated to shed some pounds. a much needed motivation. in the last 4 dasy i have worked out like everyday, cut out a major chunk of my food intake and get this.... i cut out all cokes. ahh its killin me but at the same time i feel very acomplished. now if i could just keep it up. i know i can. i just refuse to go to the beach or even to the pool for that matter this summer and be so uncomfortable about my body that i can t enjoy myself, so with a little help im thinkin i can defeat this. 15 pounds isnt a whole lot. im just in a constant state of hunger.
ive also gotten myself in quite the predicament regarding my plans for next weekend, it should be quite interesting as to how it turns out. ahh brads on his way... he's such a sweetie, he got out of class early and is goin to come see me, a 50 minute drive. i love him.i wont see him again till friday.. thats a way long time for us. i start work tomorrow grrrr not looking forward to it at all. well im out for now....
current mood:  hungry
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Monday, January 13th, 2003
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12:02 pm - its a monday
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yep the beginning of another grand week...
i have tried to get ahold of morgan and amanda all morning long. i need to talk to both of them and its frusterating me!i dont know why but i am totally stressing about stupid stuff. for one... i am totally freakin out that i am gonna lose one of my best friends soon cause of circumstances beyond our control and it makes me wanna cry. maybe im bein stupid and jealous.. i dunno. well i thought i was gonna start my new job today but i realized im a dumbass and looked at the wrong week and have a damn bball game tonight... guess ill have to wait till wed.. oh well im off to work out
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Sunday, January 12th, 2003
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11:29 am
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wow its been a while. nothing largely important has occured though. have you ever noticed how in winter life just kinda falls into this blank routine that just rolls on till spring. i hate it. i cant wait till you can walk from your car into a place without freezing your ass off. warm weather-cute clothes, tans , pools, beach, ahh i cant wait. i am absloutely stoked that i dont have to go back to school till wed. a new semester is upon me ... yay! its all hard though ...grr. me and brad are adjusting back to the every other day routine. i love him so much... maybe amanda's right. maybe we will get married, i mean she got it right wiht linds and branden. lol. we all go thtat new job at great american and i am not enthused in anyway. i love dixie. its such good money and good people and hten to go back to great american it agitates me. oh well itll only be for like a month. well i am gonna jet juts thought i would update for a change.
current mood:  happy
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Monday, January 6th, 2003
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8:40 pm - My thoughts
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well today was the first day back to school... i hate it. college and warm weather- is that so much to ask for ? upon returning to school i realized some things that remind me as to why i want out so bad. we sit at school and do nothing 75% of the day. i could definitley be doing something productive with all this wasted time. maybe im just way hormonal at the moment, but some of the people closest to me have been hurting me and i am over it. like i cant comprehend what to do because i enjoy their company and friendship but i wonder if it will still be there when not confined in the walls of a high school. she hurts my feelings and makes me feel so inadequate but i still wanna be around her. are friendships supposed to be like that? Maybe its the Brad thing, we get accused of being "whipped" but what the hell is that other than a word? i mean if whipped means being this happy then bring it on. Grrrr...
amanda was over today and we were discussing issues pertaining to both of us and it was cool cause i look at her and see an awesome friend... a best friend. the sad thing is is that the definition of a best friend has changed to me and those that i thought once were..arent. i mean dont get me wrong, i absolutley love my friends but i just wonder sometimes...
another thing... I WISH I WOULD HAVE GRADUATED EARLY. like high school just doesnt seem like the atmosphere i need to be in. i am so ambitious and i just wanna go pursue my degree and get a profession...im not wishing my life away, i just wish i felt productive with my time. this all looks like a huge feel sorry for me fest and i dont mean for it to be...just wanted to get a few things off my chest. hope all is well with everyone. without work i have a ton of free time. im stoked...just broke...well im out!
current mood:  annoyed
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Sunday, January 5th, 2003
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12:18 pm - ehhh its gross outside
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i am so bored!! like i need to clean the house but i have absolutley no motivation to do so. brad's cell phone is not working and it is killing me cause i wanna talk! this week has been great adn the thought of goin back to school on monday makes me wann cry ! i have spnt so much time with brad... its been awesome. oh geeze everything has been great excpet for wed.... massive hangover. i was so sick that i wanted to die. brad took care of me though. one more of his irresistable qualities. i am goin to see the show tonight with amanda and then off to the lake to watch the national championship... miami is gonna rock! well brad just called so i gotsta go...later
current mood: bored
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Wednesday, January 1st, 2003
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11:42 am - no work today!!!!
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oh my dear god, i think i slipped into a black hole of dixie hell. i worked like 40 hours just since thurs, liek i have done nothing else! but today starts a new week and it is gonna be a good one... i insist on it. it was ok i guess i have got to see brad alot. in fact if i can get motivated i am gonna head to see him today. i just knwo when school starts wiht bball season its all gonna get hectic and crazy. i am really happy right now. like over the past coupel of days i have kinda been in awe of the enviroment around me. like things with my parents are goin good... they arent fighting suprisingly, the whole brad thing is incredible and i absolutely love my friends. it kinda scares me now casue it seems like the better things get the harder they fall when they do .. ehhh itll be bad. well i wish i had more exciting news but i dont..hope all is well with everyone ....bye
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Thursday, December 26th, 2002
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10:38 pm - the survey
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no one prolly cares but im way bored ....
01. Full Birth Name: Cassidy Lynn Gibson
02. Hair Colour: chestnut
03. Eye Color:blue green gray.... its weird i know
04. Height Currently: 5'7''
05. Glasses/contacts: nope.but i def need em
06. Birthdate: Nov. 16 1984
07. StarSign: Scorpio
08. Current Age: 18
09. Siblings: Adrian Mariah
10. Siblings Age: 11
11. Location: Seymour
12. College Plans: carson newman
13. Any Piercings: just the ears
SOCIAL LIFE
01. Best Friends: Brad, amanda, morgan kari
02. Current Crush: bradley ryan himself
4. Hobbies: socializing in all forms, getting the hell out of high school and workin
06. Are You Center Of Attention Or Wallflower: depends... i have my moments
07. What Type Automobile Do You Drive: a new tiburon
08. Are You Timely Or Always Late: late
09. Do You Have A Job: yep ...dixie stampede
10. Do You Like Being Around People: im a people person
STUFF
01. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: not loved but def liked
02. Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: of course.
03. Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: yeah but i def broke it this time
04. Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: no not really
05. Ever Liked a close Guy/Girl Friend: yeah...muffed that one up
06. Are You Lonely Right Now: i can eagerly say no
07. Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: i dunno ... it doesnt seem so bad anymore
08. Do You Want To Get Married: someday
09. Do You Want Kids: i dunno yet
PEOPLE
Who Do You Think Of When you Hear These Names:
Shawn/Sean: Caughron
Steve: white
Pat: cousins mom
Bobby: brown
Jessica: elliot
Elizabeth: Arden
FAVORITE
01. Room In house: bedroom
02. Type of music: I dunno.
03. Song: "st patricks day" john mayer "bittersweet symphony" the verve "brick" ben folds five "change" good charlotte "your winter" sister hazel
04. Memory: i have a ton.... the other night is climbin the charts ....luv ya amanda
05. Day Of The Week: saturday when not at work
06. Color:blue blue and more blue
07. Perfume Or Cologne: Perfume - abercrombie 8, Cologne - very sexy- victoria's secret
08. Flower: peonies
09. Month: june or july
10. Season: sumemr
11. Location for dates: im a typical movie and dinner gal
IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU:
01. Cried: nope
02. Bought Something: yep its christmas for gosh sake
03. Gotten Sick: nope but felt nauseated
04. Sang: yeppa
05. Said I Love You: yep
06. Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them, But Didn't: no
07. Met Someone New: nope
08. Moved On: the past month or so has been a new beginning
09. Talked To Someone: yeah lots of them
10. Had A Serious Talk: not really
11. Missed Someone: brad...im spoiled
12. Hugged Someone: yes
13. Kissed Someone: yep
14. Fought With Your Parents: not really just had the everyday dispute over my hair with my mom
15. Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: nope
16. Had a lot of sleep: i dont think i know how to really rest these days
17. Wanted This Survey To Be Over: nah, im really bored
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9:16 pm
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8:56 pm - Merry Christmas everyone!!
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hello everyone! its been a while. i cant believe christmas is here. its craziness. i know i should prolly have a ton to write but i dont. me and brad are official now. im definatly head over heels in luv :)i am very happy at the moment. he is good for me and i love my friends. me and amanda have been havin a blast lately. well i i hope all is well with everyone and have a merry christmas!!!
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Thursday, December 19th, 2002
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7:34 pm - A great day!!!!
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Well i will have to update later but i just want everyone to know that i surpassed all expectations and got rid of the dirty blonde hair to turn it into a nice chestnut color. Im thrilled, the people that matter like it and my parents hate it... my favorite part. Well the person that matters most is sittin here with me so i dont have time to talk ...later guys !!!
Hope everyone has had an awesome day! i know i have :)
current mood: ecstatic
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Tuesday, December 17th, 2002
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2:56 pm - Good day!!
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its beautiful outside!!!! scott left this morning... i was suprisingly releieved. well i am off to work with my bestest pal amanda and then out with brad later... im so stoked! Hope everyone is havin a splendid day!
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12:27 am
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DiXieDoLL1703 [12:19 AM]: if you could be anywhere with anyone doing anythign what would you do ?
Riddledawg70 [12:23 AM]: the answer to that question is well i have 2 one realistic somewhat and the other not... the first one would be to spend 1 day in heaven with my grandfather, and 2 would be with u laying by a fireplace wrapped in blankets holding u in my arms staring into your beautiful eyes realizing all the time how wonderfull u r and how much i love your company
DiXieDoLL1703 [12:23 AM]: colorado... uncles chalet guest house... snowing outside.... curling up on the huge couch in front of the huge stone fireplace with you ...lots of blankets... listening to music drinking hot chocolate watching it snow.... loving life
Riddledawg70 [12:23 AM]: hahah thats insane
DiXieDoLL1703 [12:24 AM]: wow
Riddledawg70 [12:24 AM]: yea
Riddledawg70 [12:24 AM]: where have u been hiding my whole life?
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